Kayla My Dear, It's All In Your Head

Anthony Green Has The Voice Of A God.

Circa Survive Has Been My Escape Lately.

Queer.

I find myself in tears every time.

The feeling isn’t unfamiliar yet it still hurts the same.

Like a new burn in the same area.

My past misfortunes have altered my future.

Karma is in the Devil’s favor and my will is at his fingertips.

As I inhale and attempt to calm myself down, I find myself down a faster, more narrow road of destruction.

I close my eyes, trying to catch the escaped tears that have wallowed behind my lids; oh how I tried to fight them back with all my might.

But tears move nothing anymore.

I don’t try to convince her, oh no. The tears come out of emotion.

Fear of the uncertain future and unknown events that could happen.

I literally cannot seem to be able to move on without her.

Everything is planned. Marriage, houses, movements that once put into effect, cannot be undone.

I do not want all of this to be in vain.

But she is tired.

She is sick if the arguing, the second guessing and the questionable feelings that the pit if her stomach gives her.

But I’m clean.

I’m clean of all the sins that I have done in the past.

But it’s too late.

The foundation if this relationship is shot.

Trust is what we need and it isn’t there anymore and ladies and gentlemen reading this, if you didn’t know, trust takes YEARS to rebuild; it never happens overnight.

So I endure countless nights, swearing to the unknown that I am for real; that I am ready for a serious stable relationship. But it’s too late.

It takes me a little longer to learn from my mistakes than others.

What do I do. Where do I go from here. I will not let her slip. No…
I will do whatever it takes.

I won’t let her slip; not again.

Then everyone in the morning is awake…and then there’s me.

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And I Am Satisfied. 

got over a thousand dollars to spend yesterday.

YAY ME

michellejoy:

Would it be easy to repeat the first line? My mind’s not a well, it won’t run dry. Just keep drinking water and you’ll be alright.